Back at Uni and have no time

Hey everyone. Sorry for not blogging in ages, I just have been so busy back at Uni and back at work. Not only that but my regular monthly internet shaping happened yet again even after we had a huge house meeting about our usage. Oh well our housemate is moving out soon-ish so it isn't worth getting a new higher usage plan. So my internet has been super slow and impossible to use, hence no blogging and no reading other blogs.

Anyway I got my docs in the mail yesterday.

I love love love love love them. They are the perfect fit and exactly what I wanted for so long. It was a bit scary for a while because the post office had lost my parcel and were looking for it for half an hour before sending me away to call some number about my missing post. Just as I was angrily leaving they called out "Wait we found it" and they were so nice about it really, 3 people were looking for it and they all seemed puffed out in the end. I was so relieved, I have never had any post go missing before so this would have been the 1st time. I can still trust them, yay.

Also seeing as I'm back at Uni I'm also back at Footscray Savers shopping up a storm.

I bought this dress for $5.99. It is actually full length but I'm just holding up the bottom in the photo, I'm going to cut and hem all my skirts and dresses next weekend....hopefully. I'm not exactly sure how to wear the docs because they are so patterned can I wear pattern with them? I'll work it out soon. I really just want to look grungey and messy at the moment, like I don't care about fashion when I really do. I think its because of my street fashion photos (new ones up at MelbourneStreetFashion.com) I have became really inspired by the people I meet and take photos of. Not all my photos end up on the website because its up to the editor, and most of the people I really like don't get on because they are too messy, so I'm not sure if you can see what I'm talking about but I'll try and get some shots for here of the people who inspire me soon.

This floral dress is also from Savers for $9.99. I look super retarded in the photo but we had to be quick in the stairwell because Henry was in his pyjamas, lol. It's not like anyone uses the stairs but Henry was embarrassed. You can't really tell but the dress has a nice shape and a strange hood thing that you can wear. I think someone home made the dress because it's very unusual. Again I don't think floral docs plus a floral dress is a great look but I never want to take my docs off again, that's how much I love them. I'm also carrying all my Uni books in my new backpack, which is also from Savers.

The backpack was $5.99 and it is so 90's cool. I used to have one very similar from Sportsgirl when I was 12-13. It actually got stolen out the front of my house one day. I just left it for a minute to go inside to get a drink after school and when I got back it was gone. I went to the local police station to report it missing but of course it never turned up. All it would have had in it would have been an uneaten banana and some lip gloss. I loved that bag though, it was one of the 1st things I bought all by my self out shopping on my own. Anyway this bag is perfect for all my Uni text books and pencil case.

Another Savers buy are these high heeled plastic jelly shoes. They were meant to be $9.99 but they had an old price tag from Dimmeys which said $2.99 so I asked the shop assistant why the price is more when they are 2nd hand and she gave it to me for only $1.99. So it pays to question the prices at Savers. I bought these again because of another Sportsgirl 12 year old memory. The 1st time I was allowed to go into the city by myself was to go and buy a pair of shoes just like these at Sportsgirl. The ones I bought were clear with glitter and I wore them heaps, but the shoes would fog up in summer, and they got a bit smelly so my mum threw them out. We only lived 5 minutes away from the city in Carlton so it wasn't a big trip but I remember feeling so cool and brave and grown up. Maybe another reason why I remember this day so vividly is because when I got home we went and bought a dog, Buster, who sadly passed away recently :<

Everything I bought at savers the other day has something to do with old memories. I bought this hat for $1.99 not to wear (well maybe to a party) but because in primary school all the cool kids had one and I didn't and ever since I have always wanted one. I might wear it on Friday night to a friends gig who I haven't seen since Tokyo. I'm going to the Toxic Lipstick gig at Roxannes. Toxic Lipstick are an Aussie band from Brissy who lived in Osaka and played at the Spank girls parties in Tokyo all the time. They are back home and playing a gig with that "Melbourne Spank Girl" I met on the train and a few of my old art school friends are going. This will be the 1st time I've been out out since April, which is crazy. I've become such a homebody, I guess because I'm married. I think I might actually go out more from now on though. Henry thinks I'm subconsciously trying to make Melbourne boring so I stay depressed about missing Tokyo. I don't know if that's true or not but I really want to stop the sadness. I've been home 11 months, I was away for 11 months really I should be over it now. How long do people normally have the back home blues for? The thing that makes it worse though is really right now I am living my own personal nightmare. I go to Uni in Footscray and St Albans at Melbourne's worst Uni which I didn't ever think I would do, I work in Market Research which I promised myself I would never do again and I have no good friends at the moment, all of them are overseas. I know it could be worse and I know that there are a lot of good things in my life too like Henry, Hachiko my family and dream job with MelbourneStreetFashion.com, but its just hard to escape the sad thoughts that seem never ending.

This may be why I haven't blogged recently. I've begun to feel that the blog makes my sadness worse, I get stressed about not blogging and then I get a few rude comments and I want to delete the whole blog. Then I get heaps and heaps and heaps of lovely comments and I want to keep blogging, which then goes back to the stress...lol. its a never ending cycle. I also am sick of the vacuous, superficial nature fashion blogging, why do I need to show the world what shoes I bought? How is that important? I know it is a good creative outlet, and fashion styling is an art and at least most of my purchases are from op shops and not chain street stores but even then its so pointless. My old Japan blog was just about the fun parties I went to, and that blog is so fun for me to read again while this blog is just "I went shopping and I bought". Maybe on Friday night I'll take some party photos and change the direction of the blog, back to life back to fun. I know I can get out of this "hole" and I'm working towards it. I did see a doctor about it and he believed my depression was just circumstantial and medication wouldn't help, he could see I was working towards a realistic goal and that the depression will go away once I have achieved it. I just have to deal with my current situation. So if I go awol again please don't worry, I'm just having some me time and trying to get my life back on track. I'm now going to go out at least once a week, I already went out last night and saw heaps of old friends...I know I can make Melbourne fun again, like it used to be pre Japan.